Saturday, June 16, 2007

i'm going to give this another try...

After much debate and second-guessing, I've decided to reconnect with the anonymous world of the internet through blogging-- and I mean real blogging; not just surveys on Myspace or random updates on Xanga. Myspace caters to the stalker in all of us and Xanga just wasn't cutting it anymore. I was looking for a way to bear my soul to the entire world without exposing myself (you know, telling you things I can't tell my friends for fear that they would think I'm a bigger freak than I already am), and I came to the conclusion that Blogger.com would be the solution to all my problems.

But don't worry. I'll treat you like my friend. I'm going to tell you things I share with my friends all the time, but you get special access to the very back of my mind where my real thoughts are. This could potentially be very unhealthy-- becoming friends with (technically) no one. But then again, it is 12:32 in the morning and who the hell thinks straight this late at night/early in the morning? What I really want to know is why there's a fucking bird chirping outside my window in the middle of the night. See? I'm already letting you into the V.I.P. area of my head; I don't cuss in front of my friends because I know how uncomfortable it makes them. Once upon a time, this girl and her restless heart didn't cuss all that much, but then she started college and all of a sudden, she was spitting out obscenities like they were raining from the high heavens.

I'm not sure how long this cathartic blogging will last, but I do find it exhilarating to put myself out there with my opinions and feelings without having to explain myself to anyone because you don't know me and I don't know you. All you have to do is read and try to comprehend without thinking I'm stupid.

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