I feel like I haven't had a brother around lately. It's pretty painful. All I am is the person who brings him to school in the morning. I don't even get a thank you. I'm fairly certain I've never experienced this kind of hardship before. Usually, there's a whole bunch of b.s. I have to deal with internally & externally or whatever, but I always had my brother to talk to.. with whom I can joke around & laugh. But it hasn't been that way lately. It pretty much sucks when your home life isn't in equilibrium because it's supposed to be your refuge.. the place where you can be yourself & talk candidly with your family. But when it's in a funk like this, I feel like there's literally nowhere else to go. And I loathe this feeling.